just deal with it

ok lets see, i have to write a new post, because im tired of looking at the hansons...but again i dont know what to write about..there is alot on my mind...latley ive been wondering what is better let your feelings out even if it causes a fight or keep it in and avoid a fight when things are good? If i was asked that question 3 or 4 years ago i would be all about keeping them in. I learned too, i had to. Almost my whole life i had to keep to my feelings from my dad to avoid getting a wall punched or things broken. It the same way i lived, as far as i knew, i didnt have feelings.
Now i am in a relationship where i am happier then i have ever been and my feelings are so strong, but from time to time there are things on my mind. I have tried sharing my feelings, but it never ends well, not as bad as walls getting punched, but i just dont know sometimes if its worth to share my feelings...its not healthy, but like ive always been told sometimes you just "got to deal with it"

change-its a funny thing

alrighty then..again i have nothing to write about but just have a dying urge to write...i just started thinking of everything i wanted to do as a kid, and how none of it happened..im thinkin one of these days im going to knock off everything on that list from when im a kid, i mean how can i create a bucket list for my life now if i havent even finished mine from when i was young. so here it is my bucket list as a kid

1.go to a Hanson concert
2.Play hockey
3.Have a pink sprakle drumset and learn to play
4.start a band
5.learn to figure skate

the Hanson concert will happen-bc i still love them boys
hockey will happen hopefully-if not i hope my kids want to
drumset-uhh, well i dont really see myself in a band anymore, but i would still love you learn to play drums
figure skate sure why not, i would love to be that loser in the center of the ice at rinks doing twirls while others go in the circle around the rink.

also has a kid i hoped to have a brown lab named hipcheck-im still working on that one

its funny how things change and how some never will.